Sometimes

Sometimes
I have a hard time reconciling what I believe with what I see...
It can be dumbfounding.

Sometimes
I don't know how I'll be able watch my kids experience the natural pains of life...
Even tiny troubles can send me spinning.

Sometimes
I feel regret that maybe I haven't turned out exactly the way my parents may have wished...
I can't help but wondering.

Sometimes
I look in the mirror and wonder how to "age gracefully...."
Is it really possible?

Somtimes
my emotions corner me like a wild kitten....
and I lay awake not sleeping.

Sometimes
it takes a gargantan effort to do simple tasks around the house...
Why is this?

Sometimes
I feel so far away from God...
I know I've been slacking.

Sometimes

I feel something bigger welling up in me. Not an emotion but a physical sensation. And it seems to grow until it pokes through my chest, like a sharpened log.
It does sometimes hurt,
but it overcomes the
doubt
anxiety
regret
fear
hurt
fatigue
and lonliness that I sometimes feel.

Oftentimes
I feel faith
pushing up through my heart
driving me to be a stronger person,
one who is sure of what she hopes for and certain of what she does not see
one who casts all her cares upon Him because he cares for her
one who believes that he has a plan for her life
one who is fears not, for God is with her
one who rises up on wings like eagles
one who find her significance in Him.

Oftentimes,
I am so grateful... for without faith,
I would be at the mercy of Sometimes.

God be at All Times with Me!